Semuanya berbeda..

Aku ga tau apa yang sebenarnya terjadi, tapi dia sepertinya telah kembali. Pandangannya ke aku serasa dia adalah dia yang dulu. Sebelumnya aku sekilas berpikir seperti apa yang dituliskan dalam buku milik Raditya Dika,”Kita sudah berbeda, kamu berbeda dan aku juga berbeda, kita sudah berbeda”. Menurutku kita cuma perlu membiasakan diri dengan apa yang terjadi. Ga mungkin semua orang bakal sama, dari jaman nenek masih main lompat tali sampe dia mainan kursi roda juga ga bakalan sama. Beberapa kepribadiannya pasti berbeda.

Kita cuma perlu memperkuat keinginan kita. Tentunya keinginan untuk terus bersama dengan orang yang kita inginkan. Selama kamu memang ingin bersama dengan dia, apa salahnya jika dia telah berubah. Toh juga hatinya buat kamu dan hatimu buat dia.

Oke kembali ke topik, awalnya aku merasa dia tetap seperti biasanya. Tapi cara pandangnya terhadap aku ternyata berbeda. Aku merasa seperti aku punya keberadaan di mata dia. Rasanya seperti waktu kamu berumur 7 tahun dan kamu melihat ada mainan baru terpajang di sebuah toko. Kamu bakal berbicara di dalam pikiranmu seperti ini, “aku mau mainan itu”. Oke pada intinya aku bukan mainan.

Dia benar benar melihat mataku seakan menginginkan sebuah perhatian. Rasa ragu yang menyelimutiku kini sudah hilang *woss. Kita memang mengulangnya dari awal, membuat suasananya lebih nyaman, ga ngebosenin. Alhasil dengan me-refresh kita jadi lebih dekat lagi. Semoga hubungan kita bertahan sampai delapan tahun lagi. Selanjutnya kita memutuskan hubungan ini dan masuk ke tahap selanjutnya ya ayu.

LOVE STORY CHAPTER 3 “MY FIRST DATE WITH THREE OF US =))”

As I said in the previous chapter, I finally ask her for a date. We going out on friday 18 february, it means five days after our first chit chat. As I told you, I’m not a brave person so I brought my friend to accompany me… Yeah it’s kinda lame. Pathetic huh? So it will be me, ayu and devri.

We going to WTC (World Trade Center). Isn’t it weird? Why am I choosing WTC anyway? It has a story you know. I’m asking her to accompany me to buy a battery for my phone. Asking a girl on a date to buy a battery? Maybe I should ask her to service my phone instead haha =)).

Okay back to the story, we go after the school was ended at friday so we still wear a uniform. I still remember that feeling back then. I’m to shy to hold her hands so I put my hands in my pocket. But still we walk side by side like a line. Of course there is a distance between us. I’m to shy to get close to her.

After we done buying a battery, we go to Delta (near WTC) to have a lunch. The place we are going is Hoka Hoka Bento, a japanese restaurant. She tells me that she can’t eat using a chopsticks, I’m laughing with her right there. Watching her lips, hearing her laugh. What a beauty she got. In the middle of talking suddenly she put her hands on my thigh. She’s making my heart beat really fast.

I gently touch the fingers of her hand. Feels very smooth, and she got a small hand. So this is the feeling holding a girl’s hand. Especially her hand. She can make me become silent only with her hand. I want to hold this hand forever.. I hope so. Your smile, your eyes really turn my world. When you stare at me it feels like earth turn very slowly…

I know you’re not a human being. You’re a… Human-like angel falling from the sky.

~This is my first date with her~
Chapter 3 end. Continued to chapter 4

What a Terrible Day

The day what I’m not waiting for finally has come. Why should be end up like this. I don’t even want this to be happen. I know you just tired with me. You don’t want me anymore. Your eyes telling me that and you blame me for that? What should I do to make you feel better? I’m not your top priority anymore. Why do you do this to me? Making me almost end up like those guys (your ex). I thought you were saying you love me 😦 . Remember your plan about future, what you want us to be. Did you forget every happiness that we’ve been through. Please remember every single joy that we have done. You mean a lot to me, everything 😦 . I’m not gonna lose you, I won’t !!